AMY KNOWS IT WAS ME!!!!
After all these years i never thought i'd see this day i'd always hope for it but never thought it would actually happen but yes it is confirmed amy is officially talking to me again this is just the best 4th of july EVER!! ok well maybe one of the best ones lol we were so close at one time and it was so painful to lose her and i know she felt the same way back in the day i remember when i was getting ready to move to springfield ( was living in virden at the time ) we were both in the garage she was so upset that i was leaving we both cried and cried and thats one of the last times i remember with her then in i think it was 2000 she popped in the gas station i was working in i was like well well amy in the flesh lol and she wasn't impressed so not ready to talk to me it's probaly been close to 15 years since we went our separate ways man to think 2009 was the year that we reconnect i just don't know what to think or say ( can't tell by this long post but you know what i mean lol) anyways i'm just over joyed really and i'm gonna stop now because i'll just keep on jibbering for know apparent reason so 1 of my 2 have been found and reconnected with now if only i could convince Celia Prince to come out of hiding i would be set these 2 women meant alot to me in thier time and to reconnect with just one of them have made all the time lost worth reconnecting with.
Saturday, July 04, 2009
New Mexico Museum of Space History » Events
Happy Birthday America!
How you gonna Celebrate? well me since my plans change instead of camping out for the weekend like i was supposed to ( which is problay a good thing i didn't for many reason lol but the one reason it's it's been raining cats and dogs ) So instead having a cookout at a friends place then doing the town tailgate party concert and fireworks display sounds fun not as much as it would with a i don't know A GIRLFRIEND but since i'm 1 short of them i will just have to deal with a girl that i'm currently dating but thats even a question mark there merely because she is doing her own family thing so i might run into her up there but otherwise i'm going stag should be fun none the less.
but tomarrow after service we are gonna hang out and do something together she won't have her kids with her so it will be just me and her which is nice as well maybe have another picnic but at whitesands this time we have plans to take the sunset/nature stroll that they do everynight so that will be cool anyways i's gots to get busy so until next time all take care!
Greg
How you gonna Celebrate? well me since my plans change instead of camping out for the weekend like i was supposed to ( which is problay a good thing i didn't for many reason lol but the one reason it's it's been raining cats and dogs ) So instead having a cookout at a friends place then doing the town tailgate party concert and fireworks display sounds fun not as much as it would with a i don't know A GIRLFRIEND but since i'm 1 short of them i will just have to deal with a girl that i'm currently dating but thats even a question mark there merely because she is doing her own family thing so i might run into her up there but otherwise i'm going stag should be fun none the less.
but tomarrow after service we are gonna hang out and do something together she won't have her kids with her so it will be just me and her which is nice as well maybe have another picnic but at whitesands this time we have plans to take the sunset/nature stroll that they do everynight so that will be cool anyways i's gots to get busy so until next time all take care!
Greg
Friday, July 03, 2009
Single mom against the world!
MAHALA (had to make sure her name was at the top of the post you'll understand that in a moment)
Well I've got a correction to make LMAO I'm Single and nobody wants to call me a boyfriend atm lol that was quick lmao what happened you asked oh please let me tell you lmao this is really just all too funny i'm actually loving it it's the sadist in me i guess......
So, Yesterday,Thursday, July 02, 2009 @ 11:30 am i posted a blog you'll see it below this post lol the post was simple not unlike my other post i was blogging about my reconnection with a childhood friend that meant a great deal to me and i haven't been blogging as much as i usually do for whatever reason most likely because of twitter lol but anyways i mentioned a few other details then i mentioned how it was official that me and mahala we bf/gf and we were going on a camping trip this weekend and after i got done with it i casually told her that i had announcd her to the world that it was official between us
and what came next was a complete and total shock she's like What the hell is that blah blah blah you meant me in the bottom of your post below another woman i don't like that one bit blah blah blah i was like you got to be kidding me surely she jest
she wasn't jesting she was seriously pissed off about the position i had mentioned her in my blog post OMFG are you fucking kidding me seriously c'mon on WTF ???? really ??? yes really and all that i have spoke to about this matter seems to be of one general consensus SHE'S A FUCKING NUTJOB!!! and while this maybe true she was my nutjob but i could deal with alot of stuff but this senseless drama no that falls under my strict no drama policy i mean to end a relationship over that it's not only stupid but really shows the intelligents of said person
then she has the nerve to say that she is glad it's over because she don't have to walk on eggshells anymore ?????? GET THE FUCK OUTTA HERE!!! lmao her walking on eggshells around me thats great knowing that i didn't know from one second to the next when she was gonna go off on something casual i said she more emotional then any normal woman i'd say something in a joking manning and QUE the waterworks it's like omg are you fucking kidding me i don't ask for much in a relationship i'm easy to please really i am but this just takes the cake i mean to end a relationship over your placement in a blog that my friends is a new one to me LOL and i thought i had seen it all!
But you know what it's all for the best i'm glad it happened better to nip this shit in the bud then to let it go on until you so involved with the person that it becomes heartbreaking my heart will be fine thanks to andrea and all the other bitches that have crossed my path in the past i've learned to keep my distance and feel out the relationship before getting to emotionally involved will i miss her hmm maybe parts of her not the crazy are you fucking kidding me aspects tho good fucking riddance i say thats all i need is another drama fucking filled relationship it had a lot of resemblence to the Jenne Era and we all know i don't want none of that although i did enjoy me and jenne's volatile relationship doesn't mean i want another one like it.
i mean the shear pettiness of our break up (which mind you was her not me all she had to do was apologize for her actions and it would of been fine) makes me laugh at the stupidity of it i mean was i petty over the fact that she said that she was a methhead in the past and would be again giving the chance no.... was i petty over the fact that she said she would whore herself out to her roommate to get what she wanted/needed and asked me how i would feel about that lmao
no i wasn't although it did have me concerned actions like that i should probaly go get tested....
she told me from the beginning that she was crazy and had issues and hell who doesn't but i like to think i can deal with alot of crazy and issues because of the mere fact thats what i generally attract to me so i'm used to it but one thing i can't deal with is the senseless drama which may in fact be senseless on it's own but still everyone has a line and i just don't have the time or energy to deal with such behavior been there done that i'm 33 fucking years old THIS SHIT SHOULD BE DONE!! this is freaking highschool bullshit i just want to find a decent caring trustworthy woman that wants to settle down and leave the bullshit behind why is that so fucking hard to attain it really fucking annoys me to no fucking end
and like i told her and andrea and jenne and whoever else reads my blog if you don't like what i say if you don't like the way i say it or how i say it or the fact that it is mostly grammatically incorrect don't fucking read it i state facts get the fuck over it or get the fuck gone i really could care less who reads this blog this is for my personal release for my personal expression of whats going on in my life if you can't fucking deal with that don't fucking read it i don't need or want you here fucking humanity really fucking annoys me.
so, anyways she has alot of issues and problems and the fact that she ended the relationship is just fine with me it couldn't be of better timing personally because the girl i was dating before txt'ed me and said she was single again and asked if i wanted to go out again lmao and thats cool i was like but damn now i'm with mahala and although i could be like all the woman in my past and betray the relationship thats just not my style it's not how i am wired but i did want to get to know the other girl better and see where it would of gone i don't think we had a chance to really get to know each other but Hey guess what! now i can find without losing my moral values THANK YOU MAHALA! you couldn't of had better timing lmao ok well this has gone on long enough i'm just gonna end up being repetive and i hate repetition it is of the devil!!! and i could go on and on about various things but why bother right so in keeping with tradition of failed relationships i usually post the last conversation if it provides some form of entertainment value and stupidity does consitute entertainment value so here is the final conversation between me and Mahala
was a post that was highly offensive and insulting to me and i told her that i was done but we later correct that issue and then we come to emotional crisis number 2 where i "shut her down" whatever lol was that she had lost her house and was evicted and basically the landlord took all her shit until she paid backrent and i shut her out because i was pissed off that she told me to fuck off "fuck you" to be precise because i told her she had no need to be petty and i think being petty over your position on a blogpost is not only the dumbest but the stupidest thing i have ever heard of it's the most retarded thing i have ever heard of and yes i said retarded get the fuck over it i'm sure her brother ( who happens to be mentally challenged and by no means making fun of him or his condition ) but i'm sure he wouldn't even be that fucking stupid lol boy if i believed in hell i'm sure i would burn in it over this post lmao
but come on emotional crisis really ?? who is the lowdown on these 2 emotional crisis the blog post was about us having sex together while she was drunk and supposly has issue with drunken sex which is understandable and not the issues the issue was the feelings she was sharing about it and i'm not gonna go into details because it is so offensive and insulting to me but here's how you solve issues with emotional crisis number #1 DON'T FUCKING DRINK better yet DON'T GET FUCKING DRUNK! Emotional issue number #2 I got evicted and lost everything... this one is easy GET A FUCKING JOB AND PAY YOUR FUCKING BILLS and mind you a job is not WHORING AROUND especially not when you got a child to support as well be a fucking model for your child and get a job to support her and make the father pay fucking child support instead of enabling him to walk all over you she says "but i don't care about the money as long as he is in her life" well thats all nice and dandy IF YOU CAN AFFORD THAT LUXURY which obvisly you can't stop being a fucking doormat but yea these are her "emotional crisises" makes me sick just thinking of the sheer stupidity!
Am i gonna lose any sleep over this Fuck no i've got a date this weekend to focus my attention on lol! so anyways yea thats the lowdown and i haven't typed this much on a blog in i don't know how long lmao oh wait yes i do it was my last failed relationship i guess failed relationships bring out the writer in me lmao!
so not only did i lose a girlfriend out of this deal i also lost a friend the one that hooked us up appearently i'm a prick and an asshole because i got pissed off because mahala told me to fuck off and of course being that they are girl friends they are gonna share the same notion that i am wrong and she (stephanie) started cussing me out and i told her to mind her own fucking business obvisly she didn't like that lmao she was a pain in my ass as well anyways so better to get rid of both them damn females 2 birds with 1 stone type of thing because let me tell you them two together omg i wouldn't of been able to deal with that for long anyways fucking annoying and loud as hell when they get together they could easily get on my nerves and to think i was gonna go camping with them for the weekend my nerves would of been fried! LOL so this relationship or lack thereof cost me 2 friends which sucks because i don't have many of those i'm done to 1 verified local friend now they rest are just people i know
so yea i think thats all i can really say on the matter as if it wasn't enough right lol eh well let us end this episode of "Days of MY life" i swear i should have my own soap opera broadcasted i'm sure it be a hit!
Take care all and Merry part!
p.s.
since steph thinks mahala was right about me being a prick for her position in my blog post i wonder if i should put stephs name at the top as well don't wanna hurt her feelings too because we all know how important the position you are in in a blog post is..... Aw Fuck it who cares lol
Well I've got a correction to make LMAO I'm Single and nobody wants to call me a boyfriend atm lol that was quick lmao what happened you asked oh please let me tell you lmao this is really just all too funny i'm actually loving it it's the sadist in me i guess......
So, Yesterday,Thursday, July 02, 2009 @ 11:30 am i posted a blog you'll see it below this post lol the post was simple not unlike my other post i was blogging about my reconnection with a childhood friend that meant a great deal to me and i haven't been blogging as much as i usually do for whatever reason most likely because of twitter lol but anyways i mentioned a few other details then i mentioned how it was official that me and mahala we bf/gf and we were going on a camping trip this weekend and after i got done with it i casually told her that i had announcd her to the world that it was official between us
and what came next was a complete and total shock she's like What the hell is that blah blah blah you meant me in the bottom of your post below another woman i don't like that one bit blah blah blah i was like you got to be kidding me surely she jest
she wasn't jesting she was seriously pissed off about the position i had mentioned her in my blog post OMFG are you fucking kidding me seriously c'mon on WTF ???? really ??? yes really and all that i have spoke to about this matter seems to be of one general consensus SHE'S A FUCKING NUTJOB!!! and while this maybe true she was my nutjob but i could deal with alot of stuff but this senseless drama no that falls under my strict no drama policy i mean to end a relationship over that it's not only stupid but really shows the intelligents of said person
then she has the nerve to say that she is glad it's over because she don't have to walk on eggshells anymore ?????? GET THE FUCK OUTTA HERE!!! lmao her walking on eggshells around me thats great knowing that i didn't know from one second to the next when she was gonna go off on something casual i said she more emotional then any normal woman i'd say something in a joking manning and QUE the waterworks it's like omg are you fucking kidding me i don't ask for much in a relationship i'm easy to please really i am but this just takes the cake i mean to end a relationship over your placement in a blog that my friends is a new one to me LOL and i thought i had seen it all!
But you know what it's all for the best i'm glad it happened better to nip this shit in the bud then to let it go on until you so involved with the person that it becomes heartbreaking my heart will be fine thanks to andrea and all the other bitches that have crossed my path in the past i've learned to keep my distance and feel out the relationship before getting to emotionally involved will i miss her hmm maybe parts of her not the crazy are you fucking kidding me aspects tho good fucking riddance i say thats all i need is another drama fucking filled relationship it had a lot of resemblence to the Jenne Era and we all know i don't want none of that although i did enjoy me and jenne's volatile relationship doesn't mean i want another one like it.
i mean the shear pettiness of our break up (which mind you was her not me all she had to do was apologize for her actions and it would of been fine) makes me laugh at the stupidity of it i mean was i petty over the fact that she said that she was a methhead in the past and would be again giving the chance no.... was i petty over the fact that she said she would whore herself out to her roommate to get what she wanted/needed and asked me how i would feel about that lmao
no i wasn't although it did have me concerned actions like that i should probaly go get tested....
she told me from the beginning that she was crazy and had issues and hell who doesn't but i like to think i can deal with alot of crazy and issues because of the mere fact thats what i generally attract to me so i'm used to it but one thing i can't deal with is the senseless drama which may in fact be senseless on it's own but still everyone has a line and i just don't have the time or energy to deal with such behavior been there done that i'm 33 fucking years old THIS SHIT SHOULD BE DONE!! this is freaking highschool bullshit i just want to find a decent caring trustworthy woman that wants to settle down and leave the bullshit behind why is that so fucking hard to attain it really fucking annoys me to no fucking end
and like i told her and andrea and jenne and whoever else reads my blog if you don't like what i say if you don't like the way i say it or how i say it or the fact that it is mostly grammatically incorrect don't fucking read it i state facts get the fuck over it or get the fuck gone i really could care less who reads this blog this is for my personal release for my personal expression of whats going on in my life if you can't fucking deal with that don't fucking read it i don't need or want you here fucking humanity really fucking annoys me.
so, anyways she has alot of issues and problems and the fact that she ended the relationship is just fine with me it couldn't be of better timing personally because the girl i was dating before txt'ed me and said she was single again and asked if i wanted to go out again lmao and thats cool i was like but damn now i'm with mahala and although i could be like all the woman in my past and betray the relationship thats just not my style it's not how i am wired but i did want to get to know the other girl better and see where it would of gone i don't think we had a chance to really get to know each other but Hey guess what! now i can find without losing my moral values THANK YOU MAHALA! you couldn't of had better timing lmao ok well this has gone on long enough i'm just gonna end up being repetive and i hate repetition it is of the devil!!! and i could go on and on about various things but why bother right so in keeping with tradition of failed relationships i usually post the last conversation if it provides some form of entertainment value and stupidity does consitute entertainment value so here is the final conversation between me and Mahala
I could post the conversation that was directly relating to the issue at hand but it was on my fone and i'm not gonna type it all out lol and the emotional crisis that she was facing that she talks about the first one was that of yet another post but was made by her on her blog (listed above)
Evilive98 (7/3/2009 10:31:06 AM): wth is this "Yay!!! Single again!!! One less man to walk on eggshells... One less man who can't understand that I have feelings!!!" i don't recall "breaking up" with you i remember you being petty and telling me to fuck off and i said goodbye i could have been petty with you many of times but wasn't so don't say you have to walk on eggshells around me it's me that has to walk eggshells around you because you're so freaking emotional i don't know what will set you off
Mahala Miller (7/3/2009 10:32:00 AM): i dont believe that i was talking to u greg, i was leaving u alone because thats what u wanted. please leave me alone
Evilive98 (7/3/2009 10:33:20 AM): so you think it was right for you to tell me to fuck off
Evilive98 (7/3/2009 10:34:44 AM): what can't answer ?
Evilive98 (7/3/2009 10:35:46 AM): i didn't break up with you so if you want it to be over just say the word
Mahala Miller (7/3/2009 10:37:13 AM): you said goodbye... that i broke one of ur rules, i counted that as a break up greg
Evilive98 (7/3/2009 10:37:43 AM): well thats the problem when you assume something you make an ass out of u and me
Mahala Miller (7/3/2009 10:40:18 AM): i think the way u were talking to me, i was within my rights to say "fuck you"
Mahala Miller (7/3/2009 10:41:08 AM): now if u'll excuse me, u said goodbye, and ur going to stick with it with me
Evilive98 (7/3/2009 10:41:26 AM): i think your wrong i was stating facts if you don't like the way i post don't read it i tell that to anybody a fuck you is far from ok from a non disparaging state facting comment
Mahala Miller (7/3/2009 10:41:46 AM): Goodbye greg
Evilive98 (7/3/2009 10:42:11 AM): SAY IT'S OVER AND IT'S OVER
Evilive98 (7/3/2009 10:43:08 AM): SAY IT
Mahala Miller (7/3/2009 10:43:45 AM): i believe thats been made very clear greg, its over... u shut me down in my time of emotional crisis... for the last time
Evilive98 (7/3/2009 10:44:54 AM): you really are fucking nutz i didn't get all petty when you said you would whore yourself out to your roomate when you wanted or needed something now did i goodbye and good riddance
was a post that was highly offensive and insulting to me and i told her that i was done but we later correct that issue and then we come to emotional crisis number 2 where i "shut her down" whatever lol was that she had lost her house and was evicted and basically the landlord took all her shit until she paid backrent and i shut her out because i was pissed off that she told me to fuck off "fuck you" to be precise because i told her she had no need to be petty and i think being petty over your position on a blogpost is not only the dumbest but the stupidest thing i have ever heard of it's the most retarded thing i have ever heard of and yes i said retarded get the fuck over it i'm sure her brother ( who happens to be mentally challenged and by no means making fun of him or his condition ) but i'm sure he wouldn't even be that fucking stupid lol boy if i believed in hell i'm sure i would burn in it over this post lmao
but come on emotional crisis really ?? who is the lowdown on these 2 emotional crisis the blog post was about us having sex together while she was drunk and supposly has issue with drunken sex which is understandable and not the issues the issue was the feelings she was sharing about it and i'm not gonna go into details because it is so offensive and insulting to me but here's how you solve issues with emotional crisis number #1 DON'T FUCKING DRINK better yet DON'T GET FUCKING DRUNK! Emotional issue number #2 I got evicted and lost everything... this one is easy GET A FUCKING JOB AND PAY YOUR FUCKING BILLS and mind you a job is not WHORING AROUND especially not when you got a child to support as well be a fucking model for your child and get a job to support her and make the father pay fucking child support instead of enabling him to walk all over you she says "but i don't care about the money as long as he is in her life" well thats all nice and dandy IF YOU CAN AFFORD THAT LUXURY which obvisly you can't stop being a fucking doormat but yea these are her "emotional crisises" makes me sick just thinking of the sheer stupidity!
Am i gonna lose any sleep over this Fuck no i've got a date this weekend to focus my attention on lol! so anyways yea thats the lowdown and i haven't typed this much on a blog in i don't know how long lmao oh wait yes i do it was my last failed relationship i guess failed relationships bring out the writer in me lmao!
so not only did i lose a girlfriend out of this deal i also lost a friend the one that hooked us up appearently i'm a prick and an asshole because i got pissed off because mahala told me to fuck off and of course being that they are girl friends they are gonna share the same notion that i am wrong and she (stephanie) started cussing me out and i told her to mind her own fucking business obvisly she didn't like that lmao she was a pain in my ass as well anyways so better to get rid of both them damn females 2 birds with 1 stone type of thing because let me tell you them two together omg i wouldn't of been able to deal with that for long anyways fucking annoying and loud as hell when they get together they could easily get on my nerves and to think i was gonna go camping with them for the weekend my nerves would of been fried! LOL so this relationship or lack thereof cost me 2 friends which sucks because i don't have many of those i'm done to 1 verified local friend now they rest are just people i know
so yea i think thats all i can really say on the matter as if it wasn't enough right lol eh well let us end this episode of "Days of MY life" i swear i should have my own soap opera broadcasted i'm sure it be a hit!
Take care all and Merry part!
p.s.
since steph thinks mahala was right about me being a prick for her position in my blog post i wonder if i should put stephs name at the top as well don't wanna hurt her feelings too because we all know how important the position you are in in a blog post is..... Aw Fuck it who cares lol
Thursday, July 02, 2009
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WoW! What a Week So far!
i'm just at a loss for words you will never guess who CONTACTED ME!!
AMY LYNN LUBBEN!! ( Now Roberts )
but yes after all this years we connected on facebook ... how i love facebook....
still waiting to find out if she knows who i am we had a fallen out back in the day and i'm still clueless as to what happened but i couldn't have been closer to a person without being involved with them but we were very good friends i just can't tell you what it means to hear from her again now it was no secret that i had a huge crush on her but nothing ever happened and that was cool but anyways i just don't know what to think it was a total shock to her from her ok not gonna go on about it because you know i could but on a last note on this news let me say this never thought she would be the one contacting me and by the goddesses breath you know i've searched for her online for years never found her but i always hoped this day would come so that we could just talk again those were the days .......
Ok other news as if it matters with the previous news ( reconnecting with amy the biggest and brightest highlight that i can think of in recent years ) ok stopping now LOL dammit Greg shutup... ok... good now where was i.... ( i don't sound crazy do i ? )
Presented my first sermon this past sunday at the Local UU church it went over well was nervous as hell but i did it! my first public speaking event i was thrilled with it and i think the congregation enjoyed it as well i've recorded a reading of it and put it on youtube ( see link above ) and also on the video details i've included a link to the text version as well so i hope you will check it out and offer your feedback and take something from it.
Drumroll please _-_-_-_-_-_-
ENGLISH SUMMER SESSION IS HISTORY DONE CAPUT FINISHED!!!!! WOOHOO!!
Thank the gods let me tell you 16 week course in 5 weeks NOT FUN!!!!
But i did it and it's done now i'm just hoping i passed because it wasn't without problems
Lets see what else since i haven't actually blogged in a while been used to tweeting everything lol which by the way i have over 200 folllowers so why don't you head over to twitter and raise that number up so you can keep up with me on the little details of life also of course there is my tweets to the sidebar there but still go check me out there.
What else what else oh yea a couple more details since i left terre haute i've been single with out the desire to date until recently had a few dates gedtting back into the swing of things because after i get out of a serious rship it's not so easy for me to get back on the horse but anyways had 2 dates 1 was good but didn't really do anything but the 2nd turn out to be pretty good so good infact that that after almost a year in a half after being betrayed once again by another woman claiming to be honest and trustworthy i've got one of them thar girlfriends again ( yea yea some one actually calls me a boyfriend; don't act so surprised )
anyways she's nice cute i'm sorry she don't like to be called cute lol she's sexy :P but she is Mahala now don't let that name confuse you and make the mistake i made it's maHAYla not maHAla anyways lol so i'm glad to be out of the dating scene again because it truly sux and thrilled not to be single i miss being unsingle it's nice anyways
this weekend 4th of july weekend me and mahala going camping for the weekend with another couple it should be fun i love 4th of july one of my favorite non religious holidays anyways what else is there to share i know i never posted about spring break trip i don't think i did but all was well with that except the fact that i had to drive back in 3rd gear all the way lol yea i know....
Recently went to the White sands Unity ritual for the summer solstice umm umm i know there is more lol i just don't blog like i used and i forget stuff lol anyways i gots to get have a great weekend all and until next time C-ya!
WoW! What a Week So far!
i'm just at a loss for words you will never guess who CONTACTED ME!!
AMY LYNN LUBBEN!! ( Now Roberts )
but yes after all this years we connected on facebook ... how i love facebook....
still waiting to find out if she knows who i am we had a fallen out back in the day and i'm still clueless as to what happened but i couldn't have been closer to a person without being involved with them but we were very good friends i just can't tell you what it means to hear from her again now it was no secret that i had a huge crush on her but nothing ever happened and that was cool but anyways i just don't know what to think it was a total shock to her from her ok not gonna go on about it because you know i could but on a last note on this news let me say this never thought she would be the one contacting me and by the goddesses breath you know i've searched for her online for years never found her but i always hoped this day would come so that we could just talk again those were the days .......
Ok other news as if it matters with the previous news ( reconnecting with amy the biggest and brightest highlight that i can think of in recent years ) ok stopping now LOL dammit Greg shutup... ok... good now where was i.... ( i don't sound crazy do i ? )
Presented my first sermon this past sunday at the Local UU church it went over well was nervous as hell but i did it! my first public speaking event i was thrilled with it and i think the congregation enjoyed it as well i've recorded a reading of it and put it on youtube ( see link above ) and also on the video details i've included a link to the text version as well so i hope you will check it out and offer your feedback and take something from it.
Drumroll please _-_-_-_-_-_-
ENGLISH SUMMER SESSION IS HISTORY DONE CAPUT FINISHED!!!!! WOOHOO!!
Thank the gods let me tell you 16 week course in 5 weeks NOT FUN!!!!
But i did it and it's done now i'm just hoping i passed because it wasn't without problems
Lets see what else since i haven't actually blogged in a while been used to tweeting everything lol which by the way i have over 200 folllowers so why don't you head over to twitter and raise that number up so you can keep up with me on the little details of life also of course there is my tweets to the sidebar there but still go check me out there.
What else what else oh yea a couple more details since i left terre haute i've been single with out the desire to date until recently had a few dates gedtting back into the swing of things because after i get out of a serious rship it's not so easy for me to get back on the horse but anyways had 2 dates 1 was good but didn't really do anything but the 2nd turn out to be pretty good so good infact that that after almost a year in a half after being betrayed once again by another woman claiming to be honest and trustworthy i've got one of them thar girlfriends again ( yea yea some one actually calls me a boyfriend; don't act so surprised )
anyways she's nice cute i'm sorry she don't like to be called cute lol she's sexy :P but she is Mahala now don't let that name confuse you and make the mistake i made it's maHAYla not maHAla anyways lol so i'm glad to be out of the dating scene again because it truly sux and thrilled not to be single i miss being unsingle it's nice anyways
this weekend 4th of july weekend me and mahala going camping for the weekend with another couple it should be fun i love 4th of july one of my favorite non religious holidays anyways what else is there to share i know i never posted about spring break trip i don't think i did but all was well with that except the fact that i had to drive back in 3rd gear all the way lol yea i know....
Recently went to the White sands Unity ritual for the summer solstice umm umm i know there is more lol i just don't blog like i used and i forget stuff lol anyways i gots to get have a great weekend all and until next time C-ya!
Saturday, June 27, 2009
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Bastards Typoed my name but the time is among us, this sunday is the debut of my first service wish me luck...i'll need it lol!
BB,
Rev. Greg Fultz
Thursday, June 25, 2009
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Saturday, June 06, 2009
Exponential decay - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
Greetings all,
it was in 2006 ( 6/6/06 ) that i decided to hunt out a greater social network in terre haute, in and i found Terre haute pagans group which in turn led me to andrea roughly 3 years ago or so half of that 3 years was with her and the rest well wasn't something blissful unique and beautiful decayed in a rather short amount of time but had a dramatic impact on my life as i know it so even tho the love decayed was the impact on life worth it i'd like to think so but on the other hand did it just cause a greater effect on future relationships i'm still bothered by the timeline of our relationship even to this day. i always kidded with her when someone asked if we were gonna get hitched ... i always said "yea in 2025" but that was only due to my own fear of my previous marriage and i never really knew that it was something she was really after i was content in life at that moment but i knew things would progress one day i did see her getting married again i saw me getting married again despite my opposition to it i could of seen us getting married 3 years later but funny enough here it is 3 years later and she's getting married not to me but another man that i didn't see because it was such a fairy tale with me and her everything seemed perfect life was perfect at that time she had her issues but was perfect none the less things just went downhill i don't know what happened doesn't matter now decay set in and thats all she wrote she was done with me and i was done with her sad how that happens so now she met this dude online and moved him in and got engaged in a very quick timeline it's just barely been a year you gotta think how responsible is that is it wise to make such rush judgements is she gonna get sick of him 6 months later after they get hitched it's all very disturbing especially knowing that her daughter has 1 dead beat father and then she got attached to me and i to her and then bam i'm out and the new "daddy" is in what does this do to that child i think it's poor judgement on her part personally but hey i'm just another x it's been since i left indiana feb 2008 that i have even considered another relationship i don't even know if i'm capable of another relationship like that again i wasn't capable of that one either apparently but was it me or was it her was it both of us sometimes i wonder if we moved too slow then other times i wonder if it was too fast doesn't seem to be an in between before someone gets tired of trying to figure it out gets bored and seeks out the bigger better deal in this case andrea got bored what does this do to me and my ability to have another relationship ??? i've been alone i've had time to mourn the loss but am i gonna be able to find someone willing to accept me for who i am and be as good or better then andrea because what i had with her was everything i wanted if i can't find what i had with her will any relationship ever work out this is my problem obvisly not hers she had no problem finding my replacement she had no problem finding her daughters father's replacement i guess i'm just more human like that because i don't think it's that easy to replace someone or is she just wanting someone to fill the shoes of her ex hubby it's hard telling what her motives are she uses the term deceptivly surburban to describe herself well i'd have to agree on the deceptive part because she gave me everything then took it all away now i don't know whats me and whats not i don't feel adequte enough to hold another relationship let alone be happy again this is the problem enter Mahala great girl we've been dating for a week or so the most i've seen of any girl since andrea and we both been burn so bad that it has emotionally scarred and jaded us to the point where it could be something good but the past actions of our x's will no doubt have an effect on how we progress we ourselves will punish each other and probaly damage the potential relationship not due to us but due to our x's how is it that it can be so easy for some people and so hard for others to move on are we now condemned to a life of short lived relationships because of the hurt bestowed upon us from our past relationships will each relationship just exponential decay faster and faster until we aren't even able to date anymore and live a life of solitude because it's the only safe thing to do life is complicated more for some then others i shall hope that i can find someone that can be more accepting of me and have a stronger sense of ethics and moral values when it comes to love what i need is for someone to pick up where andrea failed and i don't know if anyone is able to do that my faith in love and fidelity trust and respect not to mention loyalty is shattered not just because of andrea but because of the past relationships as well and the ever evolving bigger better deal in this day and age forget loyalty forget about stand by your man if you don't like something about your man you get a different one thats how it works these days the days of celebrating 50 year anniversaries is over sad but true so maybe mahala will like me for a matter of time but like andrea and every other woman in my past when they get sick of dealing with me they will start looking for the BBD ( bigger better deal ) but until the decay sets in i'll enjoy the ride. so this is how it plays out 3 years later after i started my hunt seems like a lifetime ago so much has happened and here i sit alone and broken to this day and there she is getting married to a man living my life the universe is funny like that here i was living happily in indiana with "love of my life" and there he was in the west living a sad pathetic self loathing life and now he is living in indiana with the love of my life and i'm in the west living a sad and pathetic self loathing life. like i said life is funny like that. i don't see an end to this post because i could go on but whats the point right. just trying to express the sickness within me but i can never really express myself enough or describe what i'm really feeling just wanted to get on here and vent a little humanity in this day and age annoys me my past annoys me i just wondered what the point is and why we are faced with so many adversity especially in connecting with another human being and how it changes us once that connection is made.
it was in 2006 ( 6/6/06 ) that i decided to hunt out a greater social network in terre haute, in and i found Terre haute pagans group which in turn led me to andrea roughly 3 years ago or so half of that 3 years was with her and the rest well wasn't something blissful unique and beautiful decayed in a rather short amount of time but had a dramatic impact on my life as i know it so even tho the love decayed was the impact on life worth it i'd like to think so but on the other hand did it just cause a greater effect on future relationships i'm still bothered by the timeline of our relationship even to this day. i always kidded with her when someone asked if we were gonna get hitched ... i always said "yea in 2025" but that was only due to my own fear of my previous marriage and i never really knew that it was something she was really after i was content in life at that moment but i knew things would progress one day i did see her getting married again i saw me getting married again despite my opposition to it i could of seen us getting married 3 years later but funny enough here it is 3 years later and she's getting married not to me but another man that i didn't see because it was such a fairy tale with me and her everything seemed perfect life was perfect at that time she had her issues but was perfect none the less things just went downhill i don't know what happened doesn't matter now decay set in and thats all she wrote she was done with me and i was done with her sad how that happens so now she met this dude online and moved him in and got engaged in a very quick timeline it's just barely been a year you gotta think how responsible is that is it wise to make such rush judgements is she gonna get sick of him 6 months later after they get hitched it's all very disturbing especially knowing that her daughter has 1 dead beat father and then she got attached to me and i to her and then bam i'm out and the new "daddy" is in what does this do to that child i think it's poor judgement on her part personally but hey i'm just another x it's been since i left indiana feb 2008 that i have even considered another relationship i don't even know if i'm capable of another relationship like that again i wasn't capable of that one either apparently but was it me or was it her was it both of us sometimes i wonder if we moved too slow then other times i wonder if it was too fast doesn't seem to be an in between before someone gets tired of trying to figure it out gets bored and seeks out the bigger better deal in this case andrea got bored what does this do to me and my ability to have another relationship ??? i've been alone i've had time to mourn the loss but am i gonna be able to find someone willing to accept me for who i am and be as good or better then andrea because what i had with her was everything i wanted if i can't find what i had with her will any relationship ever work out this is my problem obvisly not hers she had no problem finding my replacement she had no problem finding her daughters father's replacement i guess i'm just more human like that because i don't think it's that easy to replace someone or is she just wanting someone to fill the shoes of her ex hubby it's hard telling what her motives are she uses the term deceptivly surburban to describe herself well i'd have to agree on the deceptive part because she gave me everything then took it all away now i don't know whats me and whats not i don't feel adequte enough to hold another relationship let alone be happy again this is the problem enter Mahala great girl we've been dating for a week or so the most i've seen of any girl since andrea and we both been burn so bad that it has emotionally scarred and jaded us to the point where it could be something good but the past actions of our x's will no doubt have an effect on how we progress we ourselves will punish each other and probaly damage the potential relationship not due to us but due to our x's how is it that it can be so easy for some people and so hard for others to move on are we now condemned to a life of short lived relationships because of the hurt bestowed upon us from our past relationships will each relationship just exponential decay faster and faster until we aren't even able to date anymore and live a life of solitude because it's the only safe thing to do life is complicated more for some then others i shall hope that i can find someone that can be more accepting of me and have a stronger sense of ethics and moral values when it comes to love what i need is for someone to pick up where andrea failed and i don't know if anyone is able to do that my faith in love and fidelity trust and respect not to mention loyalty is shattered not just because of andrea but because of the past relationships as well and the ever evolving bigger better deal in this day and age forget loyalty forget about stand by your man if you don't like something about your man you get a different one thats how it works these days the days of celebrating 50 year anniversaries is over sad but true so maybe mahala will like me for a matter of time but like andrea and every other woman in my past when they get sick of dealing with me they will start looking for the BBD ( bigger better deal ) but until the decay sets in i'll enjoy the ride. so this is how it plays out 3 years later after i started my hunt seems like a lifetime ago so much has happened and here i sit alone and broken to this day and there she is getting married to a man living my life the universe is funny like that here i was living happily in indiana with "love of my life" and there he was in the west living a sad pathetic self loathing life and now he is living in indiana with the love of my life and i'm in the west living a sad and pathetic self loathing life. like i said life is funny like that. i don't see an end to this post because i could go on but whats the point right. just trying to express the sickness within me but i can never really express myself enough or describe what i'm really feeling just wanted to get on here and vent a little humanity in this day and age annoys me my past annoys me i just wondered what the point is and why we are faced with so many adversity especially in connecting with another human being and how it changes us once that connection is made.
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