maybe this time i'll actually post it this year LOL
but i'm wiped from finishing up the 2020 review so i'll pick this back up soon
stay tuned!
(if you really wanna know how my 2021 went feel free to look through my 2021 fb posts i've been quite public even though that's never been a good policy for me lol)
2020 fuck what a year... nobody saw what this year had coming a year ago...
Let us never speak of this year again amiright?
I'm just gonna go through and mention the notables I'm a prolific picture taker so i just go through my photos and see what was going on at that particular time and month I mean 2020 was a dumpster fire for sure but it had its moments.
My memory is shit i'm lucky to remember last week let alone a year ago or yesterday for that fact...
so my pictorial "diary" that is google photos helps me remember I can remember if I have a trigger so without further delay...
Did pretty good on my Celebrity dead pool list got 8 Stiffs for the year as of 8PM on dec 31st 2020 maybe that might change before the game ends at midnight.
really got into the App Kik this year but of a few groups and chatting away with them like the days of yahoo messenger chat it's really helped me to be more social even if it is just online it did get me some IRL social time too but more on that later. i've enjoyed really getting into kik some of the people i meet and chat with on their i'll be talking to for many years to come. being as lonely as I am it really helps to have someone to talk to when everyone else just ignores you or dismisses you.
was even more active on snapchat and facebook naturally but i found myself more active on snap and kik
Met Rachael in one of those kik rooms it was a slow burn but we really connected and had many great conversations she became they first crush and potential love interest I had a lot of hope for her because she was amazing and quirky and brash very logical and most likely on the spectrum she had some weird habits and mannerism that i came to adore. (more on her later but as you can tell speaking of her in the past tense it didn't exactly work out surprise surprise)
oh and then there was nicole fuck me that was a whole thing for a minute she turned out to be a batshit crazy broad that ended up stalking me i was like look i can deal with crazy but you are next level crazy and i can't handle that shit but i didn't learn this until a few more months into the year.
this was a red letter year for me and "leah" we've always been flirty and exchanging a few sexual innuendos but this year she was no holds bar and we really have no secrets now but she's not new to 2020 we've had a "thing" for close to 15+ years but we've never been more connected than we are now. and that makes me happy.
and rozesetta she was a nice distraction as well but eh some nuts are just too hard to crack.
aside from business picked up this year that was a decent start to the year of course it still tears me up that Jeannifer won't let me have a relationship with our daughter I've missed so much of that child's life how can she not have daddy issues now it's terrible to do that to a child it's terrible to do that to a father.
the memes were flying hard and heavy already and it was a harsh year for memes they got downright brutal lol but those are notable mentions from what i can recall of course i could go into facebook and review there as well i'm sure there are other notable things but that's what stood out in the picture library.
February the month for lovers unfortunately i'm still single and alone despite my potential interest and high possibilities that showed themselves in January.
Rachael and I kept developing our budding infatuation with each other and nicole kept getting crazier Oy!
doesn't seem like a lot happening in feb according to my photos but this is the month that covid started really started fucking shit up i mean we knew about it in january but it wasn't really a thing it was i mean a very serious thing but unfortunately it wasn't taken seriously until it was too late. even then it wasn't taken seriously by those that should of been taken it seriously.
so not much to mention about feb that i can recalled i may come back and add to it
March fuck me this is when shit really went sideways we went to hell in a handbasket and it just got worse and worse as the year moved on and to this day it's not any better we might be getting there finally but we didn't know it at the time but the rest of the year was cancelled of course i'm talking about covid.
did I mention i lost my filter in 2020? 😂
I was brutal and I was all IDGAF i really let my mouth do the talking without a single thought as to what came out i said it as i saw it as crude and rude and as offensive as it could be. I was more public on facebook too Prior to 2020 i would be somewhat reserved and filtered in public spaces because of the business image and all but i let it all out this year. (probably not one of my best decisions)
but eh oh well it is what it is I am me and I can't be anyone else and i was just sick of pretending to be something i'm not. again not everyone needs to see the "real" me lol I've learned that Pick your battles greg it's not always worth it.
this realization comes from my ongoing treatment and counseling with my therapist Ashley she's been great at this point i've been seeing her for a year now now going on 2 years she's really helped me hone my new persona by being able to vent to someone and get actual constructive feedback is an amazing resource to have i've never really engaged myself into treatment as i have with her. I think it's because i was basically her first client fresh off her certification and they throw her to the lions lol but i always joke that getting stuck with me as her first client was a crash course in what the hell am i doing with my life lol but she handles herself well and is quite talented in her skills I think having someone that hasn't been jaded by the system really helped both of us. we've both been learning and growing from each other and we have a similar mindset so instead of looking at me like i'm crazy and eying the commitment papers to the local psyche ward she can either laugh it off and know when i'm joking or tell me look greg let's do this instead LOL.
this year of my consistent ongoing treatment has really helped me with handling my disorders and mental health in general and it's partially credited to her ability to know how to handle me.
other than that i guess the main story of the month was the great toilet paper shortage of 2020 and it lasted months toilet paper who knew? basically everyone went on lockdown i myself closed the business for almost 3 months but as a introvert i didn't really mind staying home and not having to go out and people with other people.
i'm continuing to nurture relationships and active on kik and other social media sites and services.
not a lot more in march
big brother canada came on and then got cancelled because of covid which was tragic just 3 weeks in
netflix gave us tigerking and fuck we thought 2020 was a shitshow so far tiger king just fucked everyone up lol
not a lot going on picture wise so i'm guessing we were just going through the motions what for covid to get under control and we can move on with our lives (spoiler alert) that didn't happen.
i'm sure there was more to note but it's basically the same there was that one show on netflix too hot to handle or some such shit but it was a reality show that we basically were forced to watch because there was nothing else going on so out of boredom yes i watched it and i'm ashamed that i ended up liking it lol.
same ol same ol on kik and snapchat getting back into secondlife just biding time
to sum up 2020 so far here we go (it's a shitshow like we've never seen before...)
yea all that happened before we even hit may. you'd think it couldn't get worse right? LOL this is 2020 bitch yes it's gonna get worse!
Yay! it's may and covid is going to end with the heat and people are going to do what needs to be done to save summer!
yea that didn't happen LOL people are stupid
shit just keeps getting worse and people don't seem to care if y'all don't start acting right not only is summer gonna get cancelled we are gonna lose halloween too! Nah that won't happen Halloween is safe that so far off into the year it's gotta be under control by then right?
Spoiler Alert WRONG not only was summer cancelled but halloween was as well.. well at least for the people that cared about humanity.
what's happening in pictures...
ohh yes in may we have a different Nicole and cindy enters the picture for potential love interest...the Nicole from earlier in the year went bat shit crazy and then started stalking me after i said look here you're crazy and I'm busy go away. lol.
oh did i mention first nicole was married LOL yeah and she was like is that a problem? I'm like WTF is wrong with you LOL she mentioned this right before we were planning a date night LOL
anyways moving on...
things are really progressing with Rachael though even though we want to meet up and have a date night covid is restricting are options and we decide to wait until a better time.
oh fuck i guess it was in may the new nightmare enters the arena REDACTED Enters the arena what a shitshow that turned out to be she's had me twisted ever since! and might I add the second red headed love interest (Rachael is a red head too) and I know better than to fuck with redheads the crazy hot matrix warns against this but i'm a glutton for punishment.
I start developing a relationship with REDACTED we are talking almost every day now and nurturing the budding romance but things don't progress until later on but she just turned 23 and she is gorgeous so even tho I know better than to fuck with these 20 somethings she's generally interested and is fun to talk to and doesn't seem in the least bit crazy (HAHA that was my first mistake assuming she wasn't crazy)
more on her later...
but back to the first redhead Rachael and I have really connected on an emotional level things are progressing nicely with her.
but yea the main take away from May from a personal perspective was the entrance of REDACTED.
of course there are other things but i'm just going by with my photo library is telling me and from what stands out I mean you could check my twitter and facebook and there has probably been more notable events but if i took the time to go over every post on every social media platform it would take me another year just to write this post LOL.
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Wow umm.. guess what LOL a whole year has past since I last wrote I kinda umm forgot to finish the 2020 year in review and now it's Jan 1st, 2022 😂 oops.
so now I'm getting ready for the 2021 year in review maybe i'll finish it this time LOL
but let me try to wrap this up quickly I'll give you a speed version of the rest of the events of 2020 before moving on to the next post.
we last left off in may...
jumping into june notable events me and rachael had a date and it lasted about 24 hours but don't get too excited the mall had this special drive in movie thing so we went to that because covid restrictions were a little relaxed at this point (it didn't last) but so we watched this movie and the whole time we are playfully teasing each other or so i thought... anyways movie ends and she's like so what do you want to do and i'm like we could go back to my place *wink *wink and she's like let's do it. because through are many online conversations we had explicit conversations how our first encounter would go...and everything was going according to plan....get back to my place and we awkwardly make small talk and decide to watch another movie but we cuddle up on the couch she's being coy and playfully teasing but it's getting annoying i shrug it off movie ends... she's like it's kinda late to drive home i said yeah it is my bed is comfortable and i showed her to the bedroom where we both got naked! and into bed but my advances even though we are both naked in my bed go awkward i mean she's kind of a odd duck to begin with so i'm thinking she is shy and self conscience so i try to make her comfortable and things are happening and then they stop. she's tired before anything really gets started i mean both of our engines were running but for whatever reason she put on the brakes ok cool no problem so we go to sleep wake up have breakfast lounge around and then it's time for her to go she gets naked again to change into her other clothes even tho she put the brakes on she wasn't shy about changing apparently anyways she leaves and i'm wondering wtf just happened it was one of the weirdest "dates" i've ever had but i figured we'd have time to try again and work through the "new" feeling and get comfortable with each other after all we had been talking for 6+ months daily so later that day I text her so when do you want to get together again. she's like I don't.
umm.... what?! she says you kept on touching me and i told you to stop and you just kept on doing it (this was just playful poking each other while we were fully clothed) and i'm like umm you were doing the same thing to me and you were being coy and playfully saying no stop i thought you were playing around a lot of mixed signals there. then she's like then when we were in bed you kept trying to make moves when i was obviously not into it o.O WTF?! You're Naked in my bed and i'm doing a lot of explicit things to your ass that you were quite enjoying and i could tell you were enjoying it by the moans and heavy breathing and your rocking hips but excuse me after YOU got done that i was looking for a little reciprocal action that went ignored. you're just full of mixed signals and we went back and forth for a while and i'm just like you know what this was a shitshow your a shitshow I did nothing wrong you tell yourself whatever you want but i suggest you get back on your meds because you are obviously off them so that ended Rachael.
we got along so well over kik but that crazy just exploded in person i mean just her over all personality was not what it was in kik i mean she is probably the type that just wakes up and stabs you for no reason.
good luck reading that wall of text LOL i'm grammatically challenged.
speaking of leads me into the next sad but notable event
I used to have a friend that would proofread for me she would ungreg my text we'd been friends since what 2002ish i met her and her sister on neopets the silly little game that was a thing back then. but we became good friends almost like family i literally watched her kids grow up we were tight like brother and sister then 2020 happened well specifically the poison that is trump happened.
This is the story of Karin and Lisa more Karin than Lisa because lisa always kept her politics on the DL and didn't really broadcast it or put it on a billboard LOL but me and Karin over the years always enjoyed political banter she being a conservative and me being liberal i.e. republican/democrat but we always had good debates and could always debate over policy issues etc and be civil about it. but that all changed when it became the trump republican party everyone lost their damn mind checked out of the reservation hopped on the first train out of reality and i'm not gonna go into all the details and why and shit if you know anything about the poison trump can do to people then you know what I'm talking about.
the boiling point and the final straw was the moment she told me to shut the hell up that no one was listening to me and that i was wasting my time (speaking against trump and for Biden) and I made the hard call to cut her and basically everyone that showed any type of support for trump out because it's not about politics with trump anymore I could always have a political debate with the other side and still be friends with you i didn't not like you because we had didn't viewpoints but when you start supporting hate and bigotry and just that awful human being and think he actually did a good job that is not a viewpoint i can handle i can't and won't support hate and that is all that trump oozes is hate so with very few exceptions i cut many people out of my life many that were long time friends that drank the kool-aid and wasn't coming back to reason. their minds were just poisoned it became more than politics and that's why I had to cut those people out I hated it but i couldn't associate with anyone that could support decades of corruption, hate, racism, bigotry i mean you name it trump offended it. i'll say it again he was an awful human being no different than hitler himself.
it was painful to see longtime friends fall into that black abyss but i wasn't gonna follow them.
onto july...
the only really notable thing in july was the meeting have savannah in person damn what a women.
it started great but yeah apparently we "triggered" each other things turned toxic and things were said and yeah. i think it was in late august or early september we told each other to fuck off and we stopped all communication. i mean i tried to reconnect with her but she wasn't having it she went radio silent 2020 would end without another word from here which was disappointing because she was probably pregnant with my child.
so anyways in august...
wait hold the fuck up greg did you just say pregnant with your child....?! and your not gonna go into any more details about that?!
oh lol yea my bad so yeah that happened apparently she's quite fertile and i was quite high and well things happened and i was too high to perform the umm pull out method and too high to even think about a condom so yeah pretty good chance but there was a potential chance of another encounter she had within the timeframe of the probable conception she was dating this other guy before she met me but i'm apparently the frontrunner. (knowing that it's 2022 now you're probably like wth you already know dish the dirt are you a daddy again or not?!) don't rush it though this is the 2020 update you'll just have to wait and see what happens if we ever talk again...
so where was i oh yeah august...
ok fast forward because the rest of the year is shit
I went to ohio to see savannah don't ask how it went.
Apparently, people feel the need to "warn" others about me...
That's really not needed people who know me already know everything about me and if they don't they will easily find out with a simple google search.
IF it doesn't come from the source (me) it's likely not true and you shouldn't believe everything you hear or see or read. If it's even remotely true I've publicly spoken about it (somewhere).
What's the easiest way to disarm somebody? By sharing what they think is some big secret which it isn't anyone that knows me or googles me will know everything about me I'm not hiding anything.
I'm an open book.
I'm not going around advertising it or shouting it from the rooftops because it's in the past but some people don't have a life of their own to live so they like to live in the past of other peoples lives which is kinda sad.
This is an email draft that I have on standby so when people around me get harassed by people in my past I just send this to them to so they know the real story and not some stretched out or exaggerated truth of my past. I'm not ashamed or embarrassed by my past so I don't know what they hope to achieve other than trying to bully others to separate from me.
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Full Disclosure to the people associated with me:
What are they saying to XXXXXX and should you be concerned?
Simply put No you shouldn't be concerned I have unpopular opinions/actions and people will lie and stretch the truth to make me look bad. I'm used to it by now.
Some of you may or may not know that I'm quite outspoken and vocal about certain social justice issues. I also have unpopular opinions and actions that people basically hate and they hate me for it so their sole mission in life is to harass me stalk me and make me as miserable as possible. Sad But True.
So, if you are contacted by said people they will tell you about my 2011 Anti-Abortion/Father's Rights Billboard campaign which drew international attention and I basically became the most hated man in the world. (google it) But I was also a hero to the Father's Right's/Pro-Life movement so the sword cut both ways They either Loved me or Hated Me. You'll be no different.
The media (every known news media outlet in the world) painted me in a bad picture (shocking I know) they labeled me as a jilted ex-boyfriend that just wanted to attack his ex-girlfriend and shame her for having an abortion.
That couldn't be farther from the truth regardless of popular opinion. The sole purpose and intent of the billboard campaign was to start a discussion on Father's Rights. I accomplished my goal I'm neither ashamed or embarrassed about it. I'd do it again without regret.
The story behind the billboard is one that isn't told. My then girlfriend at the time became pregnant and we were thrilled but she was also terrified but we planned to start a family we'd only been dating for a year so we talked it out and decided that we'd move our relationship to the next level because this wasn't planned at all. everything was great everything was fine as we got closer to the end of the first trimester she suddenly without cause or warning broke it off with me, of course, I was devastated apparently her friends and family didn't approve of our plans and they basically pressured her until she caved to their pressure out of fear of being disowned. Fine No problem but she was still pregnant with both of ours first child.
We talked about a co-parenting plan etc etc she suggested adoption because she didn't want to "deal" with it and that wasn't ok with me.
30 days later I was informed that she had a "miscarriage" and I just knew in my gut that that wasn't the truth. She had an abortion. without so much of a conversation with me didn't even have the decency to tell me herself now she could have easily said no I'm not having this baby I'm having an abortion and there is nothing you can do about it and that would be true nothing I could have done about it. But she choose to lie to me and to everyone around us.
I was beyond devasted this was to be my first child I was thrilled because I was told I'd never be able to have children. So this was a miracle. so throughout the next couple of months, I tried to get answers because I needed closure for my own sanity. I couldn't get any so I shared my grief with the world to try to make some sense out of what happened throughout many court sessions the truth came out she had indeed lied and had an abortion.
I got my closure. I was satisfied but the people hated me for it now don't get me wrong a Women's choice is legally her choice and I would have been fine if she told me her plans I wouldn't have agreed with it and I would have fought it but I could have dealt with it easier.
I believe that fathers should have rights to their unborn children. It takes two to conceive and it should take two to kill. end of story. I'm not against abortion, however, I believe abortion should be legal for cases of Rape, Incest & life-threatening medical necessity. I don't believe it should be used as birth control. People hate me for my views.
So that's the story behind the anti-abortion billboard. long story I know and I'm sorry that I have to tell this story once again and it won't be the last time I tell it. I'm used to it by now.
So you'd think that was it the end of the story right? sadly no...
the saga continues...
fast forward a year later I'm getting married and having another child on the way and people are losing their minds over it slowly but surely they begin chipping away at my relationship and in the end, they win the pressure of all the hate and drama that comes along with me was too much of a strain on my marriage and they caused a lot of problems in our relationship so in 2014 me and my then wife separated and she was very hostile and abusive about it and it was so ugly that I had to leave state just to get away from her. Not being satisfied with the amount of misery inflicted upon me she along with the I hate Greg fan club hatched a plan to further their goal to "destroy" me. (I can't make this stuff up)
My now estranged wife made a report with the Alamogordo Police Department and later the Otero County Sheriffs Department stating that I forged her name on an insurance refund check.
This was a check that was in both of our names and it came from the house where we lived as a married couple since separating we had let the house go and the insurance company sent the check to the address on file (mine) it's always been our way of signing each other's names to documents that needed it she signed my name I signed her name it was a given. but at this time I had no contact with her and no way to contact her so in order to cash the check and give her her portion of it I cashed the check I couldn't contact her because there was a domestic violence restraining order against me that was later dropped. No, I didn't beat my wife and there was no violence involved... in NM if you break any "community property" in the course of a domestic dispute (a marital verbal fight) you are "guilty" of the DV act. My laptop at the time was broken and that's what she used to get a restraining order against me.
This is all a matter of public record.
So my estranged wife told the police that I did not have the authorization to cash the check which is a lie but that's what she does and this was 8+ or longer months after the fact. I was already living in Coles County, IL when I got a call telling me there was possibly going to be a warrant for my arrest as a result of this report. they said they'd be in touch.
I never heard back from them so I put it out of my mind fast forward to August 2017 I'm sitting in my office parking lot getting ready to go home when I'm approached by the Coles County Sheriffs Deputy ok no problem I'm sitting in a bank parking lot at 2 AM that was suspicious enough for them to "check on me" which was understandable I didn't think anything about it so they verify who I am and that I'm there for a legitimate reason but one snafu there is a felony warrant for my arrest out of Otero County, NM I'm shocked and in disbelief over this the officer explain it was for a felony forgery charge and then I knew what it was about my vindictive ex-wife got her way.
She could have easily just contacted me and said hey give me my cut and I'd be like ok here you go... but no she wanted to hurt me and that's the only reason behind the arrest. I spent over $7,000 in fees and legal expenses as a result of this that money could have gone towards our daughter but no hurting me was more important.
I was arrested and I spent 2 months in the Coles County jail waiting to get this resolved mind you this was over a mere $400 that she never bothered to contact me about it's just her way to try and "destroy me" I reached a plea deal with the Otero County Court after being extradited to NM after I explained the situation to the Judge I got the charges dropped to a misdemeanor violation I forgot what they called it but I had to pay a fine and pay her $400 which I did and commit to 2 years of unsupervised court supervision (i.e. probation) but I don't have to report to them or anything like that I just have to keep my nose clean and then it goes away. There were 2 charges associated with this case 1 was the forgery charge and the other was a violation of the restraining order which was a result of a text message I sent to my ex-wife saying that I was sorry for everything and that despite everything I still loved her.
So there ya have it that's "My Story" and that's the type of stuff I have to deal with it doesn't matter that my daughter and I was the victim of her abuse I was the one that "broke the law".
And I'm still dealing with it to this day. so why did I go into such great detail about this well it was suggested that I contact each of you in case you are the ones contacted next. which you most likely will be and I hate that I have to involve you in my personal drama but it is what it is I know it's not pretty and I know it's a pain to have to deal with but I hope my detailed explanation will put to rest any concerns that you may have or may have in the future.
Context is everything in matters like this and it boils down to a hateful group of people and a vindictive ex-wife (I have 2 of them by the way) so the truth will be stretched and exaggerated and even full of rumors and lies if you want to know something come to me directly I have nothing to hide everything I do or have done is above board and (what I thought was legal at the time) legal. now I did have other legal troubles as a teenager growing up but it was nothing violent nothing too serious just your normal "troubled child" angst so my past is checkered but I'm not a "felon" or a hardcore criminal I've got a criminal background file but if you grew up in my environment that was "normal" everything was either dismissed or low end non violent misdemeanor at most. I'm 43 now the majority of my problems/issues ended in my teenage years I did what everyone does I grew up became responsible and learned from my mistakes.
I hope you can understand that. Now just to put any other potential rumors to rest...
1. I'm not a devil worshipper I don't sacrifice goats or newborn babies.
I am Pagan tho I practice a nature-based religion which is often times confused with the Hollywood version of witchcraft or devil worshipping.
2. I'm not a wife beater or a woman beater I've never hit a woman in my life.
3. I've got a temper and I have lost my cool but I'm not physically violent to anyone.
4. I am Bipolar so I have bad days but I am medicated and I do control it.
5. I do have a dark sense of humor and I can be crude and rude and even obscene in my personal life.
6. I like to learn and educate myself on a wide variety of topics I learn about everything even the unpopular taboo topics.
7. I'm not nor have I ever been a rapist or convicted of any sexually based offenses.
8. I'm not a pedophile or a molester of any sort.
9. I haven't murdered anyone or disposed of any bodies. (yet..see dark humor)
I think that covers just about everything it's sad that I have to go through this and even a bit humiliating but that was their intention.
Now, if this is all just a bit too much for you and you just want to wash your hands of it so be it I'll understand we can part ways no hard feelings just let me know. I tried to avoid having this conversation because this is my personal private matters and no one should have to deal with it I shouldn't even have to deal with it but this is my life. I've learned to deal with it.
I hope that you value my worth enough to see past my drama. I really do try to do my best and I don't mix my personal life with my affiliations and I always try not to bring any negativity to your image. but if my public image is not in your best interest. just say the word and I'll disappear.
I am a law-abiding responsible civil citizen but I'm also human and I make mistakes.
You don't have to agree with my actions/opinions but I hope you respect me enough to not punish me for them. I don't have to agree with everything my affiliations agree on either but that's not going to stop me from getting involved where I can because I am very community centered and I only wish to help where I can.
if you wish to discuss this further I will be available.
*this was sent as a mass mail to all my associations*
I'll keep it handy for the next time I have to do this.
This is a notice that I put on Facebook feel free to check it out as well.
So there you have it that's basically my life story from the past 10 years those are the deep dark secrets that certain people feel the need to keep alive (they are reading this right now) but what they don't know is that it doesn't bother me in the least.
Might I suggest a billboard campaign to air your grievances it worked for me...
Now, this isn't likely to happen but you never know... I mentioned I had two vindictive ex-wives the first one from 2000-2003 will likely come up with lies and such as well it's basically the same thing whatever she says is a blatant lie the truth is public I challenge anyone to come up with any verifiable proof of any claims anybody makes against me. They can't because it's made up or completely out of context.
IF you are not a hater you have nothing to worry about from me... Yes, I've made mistakes but c'mon We are human that's what we do. What really matters is I actually learn from my mistakes.
I'm the nicest guy in the world. But if you piss me off/cross me/disrespect me... well, you wouldn't like me when I'mANGRY.
That's just 100% truth there.
IF you have any further concerns or questions please come to the source. I'm more than happy to put your mind at ease and resolve any concerns you may have.
lastly, for the haters, guess what.... (trigger warning this is gonna piss you off)
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I'm Quite happy and content with my life and nothing you do is gonna change that I'm living my life and you are there living your life in my shadow. LMFAO
The first quarter of the year coming to a close a lot to do gotta pull out the end of the quarter to do list and plan for Q2 I find planning for 3 months out is much more manageable then planning out the year. but reflecting back on Q1 was pretty good did a lot of stuff created a lot of stuff had a few new experiences. so pretty positive overall.
I'm looking over my past projects and thinking of rehashing some of them for Q2 like back in 2006 I think it was I started a project called "The PND Project" (aptly titled) where I collected all my Pennies, Nickels and Dimes (I didn't spend any PND's saved them all) for a whole year and then donated them to a local charity this was in Terre Haute, IN some of you might remember it oh wait maybe not 2006 Facebook wasn't a thing isn't that funny lol anyways yea I was talking about the project recently and I think it would do really well in 2018 so we will see where that goes.
This next one isn't really a project but it was a #sermon I did at the #UU fellowship titled "Common Ground" this was in 2009 and at the time I recorded it youtube had a time limit on how long a video could be so it was chopped up into 8 or so parts I'm thinking about redoing it so that it looks better I'm sure I could improve on the recording as well lol I've learned a few things since that recording.
Along with some new ideas for Q2 that I'm going to work on I've been researching and joining a lot of support "like" groups and offering advice and sharing experiences and this and that and I figure with everything I'm doing now this could be an opportunity to add another service to my offerings I already act like a "#coach" when it comes to #tech matters you know do this don't do that let me tell you how this should be done you know just giving overall advice on various matters. And wouldn't you know that's exactly what a coach does so instead of just being a geek in the business giving advice to my customers why not expand that offering and label it as a #TechCoach now that is something I can market and sell! I've always used the "I'm Your #GeeK" slogan which is essentially me #coaching you what to do.
I do consider myself as a figure of authority in tech and as a #TechProfessional a leader amongst friends and family and customers. So this seems like a natural next step to explore. Furthermore expanding past tech I'm 42 years old now (crazy right when did that happen o.O ) But lemme tell you lol I've got a lot of #life #experience I've been through a lot of #trials and #tribulations in my day so if I can help someone why shouldn't I? maybe I'll become a #LifeCoach as well I believe I can offer good advice and work with a person through whatever they are dealing with not like a certified therapist/counselor can but I offer good advice. So I'll explore that more. Why stop there?! hell, I've been in #business for myself for much longer than a decade but officially about a decade so I've already been exploring helping out #SmallBusinesses I could label that as a #SmallBusinessCoach because again I can offer good advice. It was being labeled as small business #consulting but "coach" is the trendy word for it now. Everyone wants to be a coach so why not #hoponthatbandwagon!
So that's where my head is at.... man that post ended up way longer than I planned lol looks like a blog post to me but sure whatever I'll post this on my personal blog as well.
and if you actually read all of this then props to you you must actually really like me rambling on lol you should probably get on the email list if you like me rambling gfnt.me/Newsletter
This is a #HotTopic and I'm never shy about speaking on controversial matters even if it does get me in trouble from time to time. My views and opinions often alienate people but I figure that's just a way to weed out the people that I don't want to associate with anyway.
If I can't speak my mind without you getting all pissy about it then I don't need/want to be around you anyway.
So, no they shouldn't do that specifically (see attached picture) I think it's worded wrong but what should happen is that the other parent Mother or Father receiving child support should be giving verified expenses of that child and base child support off the actual needs of the child.
The Child support system is so whacked that they expect the parent without the child to give an obscene amount of money that well exceeds the expenses of the child.
There is something wrong about that I personally don't want to be paying the mother of my child for her cigarette habit or to go out on a Saturday night to get drunk and do god knows what with god knows who. I have a problem with that!
I could care less what she does with her money I don't need to know what she is buying or what she is blowing her money on. What I do care about though is that my child is getting everything she needs with OUR money. Just because We are not together anymore doesn't mean she doesn't have to pay her fair share either!
It shouldn't be about who pays what or who pays more or less as long as the child is getting what she needs. We should still be doing this TOGETHER.
What? she needs new clothes for school but you can't afford it NO Problem let me get that for her... oh wait I've already paid my child support this month You'll have to handle that on your own...
Is that the way it's supposed to be? Isn't there a BETTER WAY?
Yea There is it's Called Parenting you do what you have to do! be a civil parent and work with each other for the benefit of the child. Maybe Dad doesn't have enough money to make child support this month and you gonna crucify him for that? Send him to Jail? incur all sorts of Fines and Lawyer fees? when that could have been money going to the child? What sense does that make?
We Need Child Support Reform We Need Father's Rights We Need the courts to stop making these devastating decisions.
Sure there are BOTH mothers and fathers that won't have anything to do with their children or willingly refuse to support their children and the courts should do something about THAT but for the parents who ARE TRYING to make it work should not be damned if they do or damned if they don't!
Now I know once this gets out (and it will) I'll be called a hypocrite or worse because I don't always send my full child support as ordered by the court, in fact, I pay very little of it but I do what I can and I always send SOMETHING every month that should count for something. but I don't know what expenses my child has because NO ONE will tell me what they are! why should I pay an obscene amount of money when I don't know what it's going to? I shouldn't and I WON'T and I Can't anyway because I can barely afford to support myself BECAUSE of the situation the MOTHER put me in! I was doing just fine SUPPORTING the ENTIRE family on my income the mother didn't even have to work but then she strips everything away and STILL expects me to support her and OUR child I DON'T THINK SO! The court says I HAVE TO PAY FOR EVERYTHING and SHE is not required to pay anything and that is supposed to be JUST AND FAIR?
I told her and I told the courts TELL ME what her expenses are and I will do my best to do my part but THEY refuse ASK ME for what she needs SHE REFUSES what am I supposed to do?
My bills aren't getting paid and I need to raise my rates to support all my NEW bills and expenses but if I do that I'll get LESS business which is counterproductive. I wish I could give my child $500 a month I'd be happy if I could afford that.
But NO ONE will work with me that's why we need reform on the ENTIRE family court system.
So people like me won't get screwed.
That is my defense I'm NOT a deadbeat father I AM trying I am Sending what I CAN afford I'm sorry if that doesn't support a two pack a day habit.
Maybe if I knew what was needed I could do more to help with OUR CHILD the mother is not MY RESPONSIBILITY anymore.
Good morning people I'm so proud of myself I think for the first time in my existence I actually managed to hold my tongue lol last night a group of friends were having a discussion on abortion. Yep that hot controversial topic.
Mind you this wasn't my discussion and I wasn't brought into it so it was hard to not jump in on it lol y'all know how opinionated and outspoken I am on controversial topics but when your in with a certain group of people for a greater good you have to know what battles to fight and when you should just keep your mouth shut!
That is the hard part because like I said before I have an opinion on EVERYTHING and it's not always the popular opinion but when I make a stance on a subject I don't do so lightly I think it out and I apply logic and rational reasoning to my opinion I look at the greater good and the moral implications of any stance I take and I like to think that my opinion is the most logical approach that any moral logical human would have.
This is just how my mind works I'm very Humanist in that sense so yea I won't hide or be ashamed of my process if you don't like it fine but respect my opinion just like I respect yours.
You better believe if I was brought in on that subject I'd school your ass on all the implications that arise from the mantra "My Body, My Choice" but like I said I'm not trying to start drama when it doesn't include me there is a time and place for that if it's in a public forum that's a different story I'll jump in and speak my mind regardless of the consequences it wouldn't be the first time I fell on my sword.
Freyja, I'm so sorry that you have to deal with everything that's been going on with me and your mother since we separated and divorced.
I know it's been hard on you it's been hard on everyone some more than others. It's ridiculous that your maternal family won't let you have a relationship with your paternal family You need your daddy and although Shanna has helped in the past she is very hostile towards me and only gives me crumbs of information about you.
So It's time I did something about this I have given your maternal family plenty of time to work with me and to be civil they refuse to respect your rights and my rights as a father so I will be starting a campaign to help make this right whether they like it or not it's my duty my obligation my job as your father to see that you are being raised right and without psychological trauma and I'm not convinced in fact I'm completely convinced that your well being is not being looked after in your best interest.
They are using you as a weapon against me and I will not tolerate it anymore! I've done everything I could to try and make this work in a civil and respectable manner but these things (divorce/child custody etc) rarely end up being civil I wanted to work this out between involved parties without the need of government interference but I see now (3 years after the fact) that this is not possible It's time for me to fight for my rights as a father and save you from the mentally abusive violent family that you were born into. I will do my best to make sure you are in the best environment possible to make sure you aren't damaged any more than you already have been from this nightmare that we were cast into as a result of one disturbed mentally unstable family.
It's been 7 years....
84 months....
365 weeks....
2,557 days....
61,381 hours....
3,682,884 minutes....
220,973,107 seconds and counting
Since I should have met you. You are still a part of me even though you never got the chance to live you live on through me in my head I imagine what you would have been like what you would have done in your life what you would have liked would you be sitting here watching the #Superbowl with me? Would you be a #Geek like me? What would your style be? What would your favorite subject in school be?
These along with many other questions and wonders haunt me every single day I often wonder if the universe saw the wrong that happened and said no we can't have this... this child was meant to be born this child needs to be born and you came back to me a year later when you? Or maybe it was your sibling Freyja was born I don't know but I like to think you were meant to be my child and you found your way back to me Freyja may have been my first born but you, my child, was my first conceived and I remember the day vividly your mother and I went out and bought a dozen different pregnancy test and used every single one we were in disbelief shock even because I was never supposed to be blessed with a child due to childhood medical procedures that I was told would render me sterile so I felt truly blessed to actually become a father and your mother was thrilled too naturally we were both scared and terrified but we accepted it and we started planning for our new family but despite the joy and happiness this brought it ended up in a terrible tragic nightmare that lives on to this very day. I don't know if it haunts your mother as much as it does me but I know I wish things would have been different I wish you got to breathe I wish you got to play I wish you weren't killed.
Now, I want to say something I respect everyone's beliefs, principals, values and opinions and I should hope that I'd get the same respect back.
My opinions, thoughts, feelings, beliefs, values, and principals don't fit in a single box I'm all over the place and that's not always popular I don't hide my past or my core values but I'm not out there advertising it all the time either I had a traumatic event happen to me and it changed me and every year on this date what would have been the birth of my first conceived child I remember her/him. It's therapeutic to me to remember and to talk about it I started an international conversation not for fame, not for glory and definitely not to hurt harm disparage anyone I did it for the same reason I do every single thing because it needed to be done.
I'm #passionate and #outspoken on topics that concern me or #humanity in general I'm a #Democrat I'm a #Republican I'm #Religious I'm #Spiritual I'm #Progressive I'm #Political I'm all about fighting for #socialjustice within a logical and reasonable/rational mindset and again that's not always popular. #DontPutMeInABox #ImEverything
Do I believe all human beings deserve to choose what happens or doesn't happen to their body yes! So in that sense, I am Pro-Choice but that includes ALL #HumanBeings including the #Unborn who is going to speak for those unable to speak for or defend themselves? Someone has to!
Life is Life you don't get to play god and decide who lives and who dies!
Now if it's a mutual decision between the father and the mother that's on them that's their decision I don't support that but I respect their opinion.
But don't take that decision away from the father we are 50% of the equation we are the reason you are pregnant we should have a say in the well being of our child just as much as women do yes it's your body but inside your body is another body another human being another life and that body that life needs to be protected as well. I don't care what you do or don't do with your body I'm concerned about the body inside of your body.
You can do anything you want to prevent life that's your decision that's your choice I support the use of contraceptives but once you conceive once you create life your decision your choice ends take responsibility for your actions UNLESS it is the result of rape, incest or it will inevitably end your life that is the only reason for abortion!
Abortion should not be used as birth control.
That is my thoughts and opinions on the matter.
This is me! I'm not ashamed! I'm proud of my service to the Father's Rights movement I hope for equal rights for everyone, not just women.
Our society is hypocritical on the subject they claim to want equal rights but they really don't Father's are treated like second-class citizens and it's time we change this it's 2018 it's time we respect everyone.
With all that said if you have a problem with what I said if you don't like what I said that's ok you don't have to like it but respect me as a human being for having the guts and courage to speak out on something that is critical in our society.
I respect your thoughts and opinions please respect mine. We can agree to disagree on any topic and still be friends I enjoy a good debate on any stance I take on any matter and if you can't deal with that then I feel sorry for you because I'm still Greg I'm still me and I don't change this is me. My thoughts and opinions naturally change and evolve over time but my core values never will take it or leave it. I'm ok with it either way.
So, as I've already mentioned I've reclaimed this space it now has a different direction and purpose.
I hope you'll enjoy it much more than you did the previous incarnation of it. but seriously though I don't think anyone really cares about my thoughts or opinions or even care what I do for that matter unless it's something they can crucify me for but you know whatever I'm still gonna do me like it or not when someone finally notices what I do they will have a lot to enjoy because I do a lot of stuff!
Regardless if I'm just here talking to myself so be it I enjoy my company so lol :P
I'm trying to elevate my personal/individual profile as a person of authority on different matters this is a new thing but I like where it's going it started late last year when I joined my newly beloved Tribe at Crowdfire it really allowed me to grow as a person and a creator.
Just like my friend +Zita Castillo, I aspire to be a Life Coach of sorts but not in your traditional sense. I'm thinking of something like a mentor to people who have trouble with technology or computer security or just how to stay safe online I'd also like to advise on matters of the topics I have listed in the topics menu above. These are all topics that I care about or that I'm passionate about and I feel my thoughts and opinions on these matters are important and would be important to others.
With that said feel free to engage me on any topic above and I'll speak on these topics as well when the mood strikes.
Let's Talk About it!
If you are new here and don't know about me check out my Bio at GregFultz.com
Well, this has been an interesting turn of events since my last post lol mere hours ago or less I thought to myself Why Kill something I've had for 15 years?!
I mean sure I haven't used it much in the last few years or 5 lol or more lol but that's only because honestly I was not proud of some of the post I've made I'd go as far as saying kinda ashamed and I didn't really want anybody to find it but I didn't want to hide it either because whether I like it or not that was me and whether you like it or not that was me I embrace that.
So, since the old GEFBLOG is archived and no longer publicly available which is kinda good I didn't think I wanted to do that until I did and it's like a huge weight has been lifted I was always afraid someone would look at my post and think man, this guy is batshit crazy! lol at times I probably was but that's bipolar for you I don't know why but it really feels like a fresh start.
With that said I give you GEFBlog: Thoughts & Opinions
The New and Improved (for 2018 and Beyond) Personal Blog of Yours Truly, +Greg Fultz!
Yay! I promise not to be "too" crazy but you know it is me so yea...
Let's put it this way I won't "hide" myself but I'll try to be socially and politically acceptable.
But, don't quote me on that lol also I've installed Grammarly to help with my ever challenging grammar skills I've always been grammatically challenged and that's another reason to have archived the past 15 years of blog post because they literally made peoples eyes bleed just ask +Lisa Bradley (hey that g+ tagging is pretty nifty lol what do you think Lisa?) Seriously though it was bad, imagine 1500 words with no paragraphs and no punctuation just one big 1500 word sentence LOL yes it was that bad and it was embarassing for other people to see.
But, as you can see I've tried to improve my writing skills so that it's a bit more, acceptable...
of course, it won't be perfect but maybe tolerable?
Anyways, I digress so what am I gonna do here? well, I figure I would talk about well my thoughts and opinions on a variety of different subjects I won't limit myself like I do on the TechBlog which is mainly just technology and/or business subjects.
So, If you look at the top of the blog you will see a menu bar with a variety of topics if you click on one of those topics you can answer the questions on that topic or just comment on it and I'll post about that or I'll just randomly think of stuff to put on here (it's not like anyone is actually gonna read it anyway lol) it's hard telling how much I'll post but I assume it'll just be when I come across something and say hey that's a good topic to discuss! or Hey! EVERYONE has got to know my opinion on [insert controversial topic here] lol because you know why not?
So that's my plan for the rebirth of the GEFBlog I'm excited what about you?
2003.... I started to blog (this blog right here) and boy did I blog lol.
I basically shared everything all my feelings and goings on and I wanted to be an open book.
I loved the idea of putting it all out there you know self expression and so fourth....
I had my little corner of the web I wanted to be Seen and Known who doesn't right? I guess not everybody but I did and I still do but now I want to be Seen and Known as a Professional and that's what brings me to this decision. I'm trying to elevate myself and raise my personal/professional profile and that's kinda hard to do when you got 15 years of blog posts that don't always shine a positive light on what you are trying to achieve now.
Let me break it down for you. I don't want to hide my past (it's not like I "killed" someone...) But over the years I've changed from one form to another to another we all do what I liked in 2003 I don't like now. What I like now I didn't like then. you get the point....
My personal blog was just that personal I didn't hide anything I wanted it to be a true account of the person I was and the person I was becoming and you could see that over the years and as the years went on I had some bad times and some good times and I didn't always handle the bad times well.
See, I am diagnosed as a Bipolar Manic Depressive for those that know what that is you know that it can cause severe problems in one's life and no it hasn't been easy but over the years I have tried to manage to the best of my ability and sometimes it still gets the best of me. but over the years on the blog it really shined through i would go on grammatically challenged rants and raves and all sorts of tirades calling out those who I felt wronged or slighted me and all sorts of different behaviors.
I shared the good times too! things I was up to changes to my personal site etc. etc. but the bottom line is I did and said things I'm not proud of and looking back I wish i could change some of the behaviors I experienced but that was me at THAT time I can't change that and although my behavior did stem from my bipolar disorder I take responsibility for my words and actions. even tho I was venting my legitimate feelings I could have expressed myself in a better more civil manner.
In 2011 I went through a pretty traumatic time and of course I could of handled it better but I felt the need to express myself and stand up for my beliefs and I have certain convictions that I felt strongly about. These convictions & beliefs were unpopular to say the least but there was also a lot of support as well but for those that were against me and my actions started to dig into my history just to make already bad situation worse. Yes, I've done and said things over the years that haven't been pleasant but my actions were never illegal or unlawful. That's not to say I haven't be in trouble with the law lol because during my early years as a young and stupid kid/teen I had my fair share of trouble will the law again nothing that serious. anyways people brought up some old post that at the time i didn't think of as "wrong" and when it was pointed out i could recognize at that time how it would be seen as "bad" of course I didn't know certain actions were bad or else I wouldn't have behaved in such a way.
Let's just say I've learned over the years I can be my own worst enemy.
I take all my experiences both good and bad and use them to help me grow into a better person and I believe it has and right now in 2018 I've never been more proud of myself and my accomplishments of course I've still got some work to do better I'm just here now trying to be a better person than I was yesterday.
So, with all that said it brings me to my decision to archive my blog for historical purposes they are not *gone* because I don't want to erase my past I want to learn and grow from it and there was a lot of negative and painful memories for me in here and I want to highlight the good I am doing now and not have my past thrown in my face everytime a hater gets an itch they need to scratch. I know some will view this as me "trying" to hide my infamous past but what I'm actually doing is moving on from it and i suggest you do the same.
A few stats before I go:
I left the first post up which was posted in 2003 (15 years ago! wow) but over the course of 15 years I wrote 888 posts not that much considering. but some years i wrote a lot other years I didn't. there was over 35,000 views on my blog over the years again not that that much considering. Basically nobody ever really cared about my blog and hardly anyone ever viewed it unless it was to be used against me. Which is sad.
So now I bid farewell to the past "2003-2017 GEFBlog" and move on towards the future.
I'll probably still make a post or two every now and then but I mainly have facebook and my other social media sites to express myself which is basically why I stopped blogging here and I was always leery of promoting the blog due to my Bipolar rants and such I was afraid of what people would think about me so I didn't advertise it but I didn't hide it either because regardless of what people think this was me and although I wasn't always proud of myself I'm not gonna hide from myself either.
If you wanna find out more about me or what I'm up to visit my main profile at GregFultz.com (note there is no dot in that url as my previous url was Greg.Fultz.com)
Below are some pictures of me over the years just to show you how I grow and change over the years just like these pictures I myself as a person have changed and grown from my past so if you are viewing these now don't judge me by my past embrace me for what I'm trying to become even with the adversity of my mental disorders.
New #Blog post is up! this one is about #InternetSecurity and using #PublicWifi
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#INTERNET, #ATTACKS, #CHECKLIST, #FIREWALL, #FREEWIFI, #HACKERS, #LIFEWIRE, #MALWARE, #MITM, #PCMAG, #QUOTE, #RISKS, #ROMANK #PHOTOGRAPHY, #SCAMS, #SECURITY, #SNIFFERS, #SOFTWARE, #VIRUS, #VPN, #VULNERABILITIES, #WIFI, #WIKIPEDIA #NordVPN #MalwareBytes #Emsisoft
Who doesn’t like free Wi-Fi am I right? We go to our libraries and our coffee shops and airports, malls, restaurants and hotels and heck we’ll even connect when we stop in for bread and milk at Walmart and if there isn’t free Wi-Fi at our favorite spot we complain. It’s 2018 for goodness sakes …
